Hell and damnation
A bad day is a lousy thing.
But a bad day coupled with some extremely negative feedback can be a crushing thing indeed.
Received a "wake-up call" email from an editor today, which said that my work has gone to crap. It was a pretty brutally-worded thing (goodness, don't sugarcoat it on my account) -- the sort of thing you would have bad dreams about, before waking up with a gasp of relief that it was all in your head.
But not for me. Not today.
The result is that I've had to evaluate some things about myself -- never a particularly good thing when you have a pretty hefty penchant for self-loathing and criticism. Decided that maybe I should just call it a day, and bid adieu to this whole writing thing. Which could be a relief -- my friends will no longer have to reassure me that I'm not the worst writer ever and feign interest in my work. My family will be delighted that I can finally pursue a financially viable occupation, and Chris will no longer have to deal with my fits of frustration, writer's blocks and generally moodiness.
Of course, I will keep the blog around. Bad writing never stopped a good blog -- or even a mediocre one.
I hate days like this.
But a bad day coupled with some extremely negative feedback can be a crushing thing indeed.
Received a "wake-up call" email from an editor today, which said that my work has gone to crap. It was a pretty brutally-worded thing (goodness, don't sugarcoat it on my account) -- the sort of thing you would have bad dreams about, before waking up with a gasp of relief that it was all in your head.
But not for me. Not today.
The result is that I've had to evaluate some things about myself -- never a particularly good thing when you have a pretty hefty penchant for self-loathing and criticism. Decided that maybe I should just call it a day, and bid adieu to this whole writing thing. Which could be a relief -- my friends will no longer have to reassure me that I'm not the worst writer ever and feign interest in my work. My family will be delighted that I can finally pursue a financially viable occupation, and Chris will no longer have to deal with my fits of frustration, writer's blocks and generally moodiness.
Of course, I will keep the blog around. Bad writing never stopped a good blog -- or even a mediocre one.
I hate days like this.
posted by /hg | 2:14 p.m.
2 Comments:
wow. awesome blog. keep up the good work. found you from Tali's blog.
Rye
"He" was actually a "she."
And they're right... to some extent. I don't think it helped that I wrote the assignment while under three separate deadlines.
And besides... I do suck.
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