Shut Up & Write

You love it. You loathe it.
Either way, you can't help yourself. You are one of us.
(You are also a masochist. But that's OK.)

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Struggling (and more often fighting) writer by trade, and office monkey when I need to pay my bills. It's an enviable life.
I know, you're probably a little jealous now.
It's perfectly understandable.

December 25, 2008

I am indeed an effing idiot




Time keeps slipping away from me when I don't notice it. Which, of course, gives me ample opportunity to let my blogging slide until I am indeed ready to pick up keyboard and mash words into it.

It's Christmas day, and I've just gotten off the phone with my uncle. I am consistently amazed and horrified at just how stupid and idiotic I am capable of sounding to relatives. Years ago, I was dismayed to learn that my aunt did not care for me at all. In the sense, of course, she didn't much like me -- I'm sure she has some concern for my welfare.

However, ever since then, being the gorgeously paranoid creature i am, I labour under the impression that I am universally disliked by ALL family members. Tolerated by a few, disliked by most. "That Hannah girl? Ugh. What an embarrassment." And of course, things slip out of my mouth carrying one intention, and gather another somewhere in the air between my lips and their ears. Minutes after the conversation ends, I cringe.

I am much better in person, most of the time.

Of course, I am dreadfully lazy.

Now to totally drift off course -- because it's more fun to just switch topics when you're simply too bored or irritated to continue the previous trail of thought. (Besides, I do hate looking like a twit.)

In the last few months:

I went and returned from Nova Scotia.

Temped my little arse out -- being an assistant to a Regulatory and QA director (dull job, lots of filing, but the woman I worked for was pretty awesome).

Chris was laid off.

I insisted on still trying to write...



...but picked up a full-time job a few weeks ago (a real "grown-up" job with normal pay and all) that will last at least six months.

I do want to keep on the writing, but I simply do not have the resources or support network to allow me to do it full-time at this point in my life. The debts are growing and I'm getting nowhere. So I'm opting to use this opportunity as sort of a sabbatical.

Besides, I kind of like being regarded as something other than a clever little office monkey or a failed writer.

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