Ask and ye shall receive...

I think this was Ro's post title a few days ago.

Anyway, I was thinking for the last few days that I could do with a nice surprise. A hidden check. Maybe an agent. My friend's return from Afghanistan.

Something.

And boy, did I get it.

My finances were fucked up over the summer. I missed not one but two credit card payments. They sent the file to a collection agency.

I have until Thursday at noon to come up with $5000.

Or my credit is fucked for the next seven years. (The small shining cloud in this mess is that apparently my credit is actually pretty good.)

Oh fuck.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck...

I always joke about throwing myself in fron of a train. This is the first time I've actually seriously considered it.