Sometimes I like to bang my head on the table...

...And just think about how much I don't feel like even reflecting, mocking or even remembering much of my life.

No, no.
I'm not depressed. Just one of those days when I wish I could morph into someone else for a while. Ever get the feeling that you're a passive bystander in your own life? Not so much like watching a car wreck -- more like standing on the side of a highway while the traffic flies by.

Life is what happens to other people. And sometimes, if you're fortunate, they'll invite you in for a while.